She’s the lifeforce. I woke up next to her one day, and touched her face. Soft. I know all the lines, I know why she smiles, and I’ve seen the frowns, I have seen the tears.
I remember the day she lost her mother; I remember the day we had a monster break in through her parent’s house and shove my nana to the ground, this 6ft tall, hunkering man. And I remember her scream.
I remember the day she breathed life into me as I nearly choked to death, I remember her pumping my chest to keep me fading forever. Mother. Mother. Mother! I yelled as I thought she was fainting once, as I ran over to her. I thought I would have lost her then. Mother! I yelled in pain, over this, that, the other. Her eyes, they keep me going for now. I have to remember those eyes, and that heart, and that soul, always by my side.
She comes over sometimes and hugs me, brings me a cup of coffee, or tea – she asks me what I am up to, what I have done so far. How is it that I am yet unable to care for her the way she can for me. Mother, let me cook for you, let me take that burden – let me, let me, let me. What are those cracks in your heart that you hide from me.
Her hair is so silver now, but her smile is as beautiful and as gorgeous as ever, the way I would want to remember after thousands of sunrises more, for she and the sun, they are the same, the lifeforce. Mother.